A Love Letter To You, From Me

I hope you don’t give up on yourself because of something, someone else did to you.

I hope you don’t blindly believe that it was your fault. Sometimes, we do make some choices that are problematic and make us think it is our fault at the end of the day, but you have to remember that you are not perfect. And no one is. You will not always make the best decisions in your life, and that is okay! You will fail and sometimes, survival would be the only option left. And in that survival mode, you will hold onto anyone who lends out a hand, no matter how deceiving.

I hope I can show you how loved you are by everyone around you. I hope I can show you how kind you are to give all the love you encompass within yourself, to those around you. I hope I can show you how you never stopped caring for people, even when they were not worthy of your affection. I hope I can show you those rainy days when you have wept under your blanket, but given hope to everyone around you. I hope I can help you see yourself as the kind of person who tries their best to keep going, who refuses to be weighed down, whom everyone wants to be around :)

And with so much love to give, you have often ended up hollow. You often tried to be someone else because being yourself is hard. You often tried to escape your reality because reality is hard. You often tried to make others believe in you because believing in oneself is hard. You often tried to be lost in the crowd because being alone is hard. But I hope that no matter what happened to you, you can find healing. And I hope you can offer yourself all the time you need to heal.

But more than anything else, I hope you don't give up on yourself. I hope you don’t give up on your dreams that you've nurtured since childhood. I hope you don’t give up on the bright future that you would share with someone incredible. I hope you realize it is never too late to find that incredible someone. It is never too late to start afresh, because sometimes that is all we need. I hope you are proud of the person you have become, because you are someone no one could ever be!

xAG

PS. I wrote this last week after a very dear friend took her life following an argument with her partner. I wish I could be there for her; I wish she could confide in me and share all that she felt. There was so much anger, pain and anxiety in me since the last week that had to be channeled in a constructive way, and maybe, every time I have known a loss, I have turned to writing. I dedicate this love letter to every human reading this and I wish you love, sunshine and happiness. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for.

PPS. I am not as emotionally mature as my words may deceive you to believe, and I don’t know what I would have done in her situation but what I know is.. Nobody is worth dying for, but there are so many of us worth living for. Please do not let one person harm your mental health in such an extreme way. Instead try to look around for reasons and people who won’t let you go, no matter what. After all, in this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make.

See you in another lifetime, AK. ❤