Is It The End? Yet?

It was the most ordinary day. And another ordinary phone call with a friend. During one of such late night conversational phone call sessions, coupled with some whining in between, discussing boredom from work from home, and catching up on each other’s love life, I heard her say, “I don’t think I will ever love again. If I knew that was the last time we would meet, I would have never said goodbye. No, no I will never love again.”

I could not understand what happened that moment, but something just stuck me, like I have been hit by the lightning on a windy night. I tried but I could not carry that conversation any further. I was so stuck on what she uttered. And those words continued to echo inside my head, swirling me back and forth. Why would she never love anybody? Why? How? Can she? Would she? Should she? And that was the most precise moment when I knew that I needed to pick up my pen and bleed my thoughts into paper. I believe that a lot of things I write about come from absolute mundane conversations, whether with a stranger on the street or a random human in the queue at the restaurant or an old lady at the shopping arcade or a song piece stuck to my ears or a movie excerpt I cannot seem to forget or just observation, plain simple observations! I like to believe that I am quite fascinated with human behavior in its most raw and unadulterated form. And with these sweet murmurings, I started writing about her.

You will love again.

You will love again even though his parting words are still fresh in your mind. You will love again even though he promised you his forever, and still chose to walk away. You will love again even though your heart still beats for him.

Because the thing about love is that it always comes back.

And you may not recognize that at first, but it will recognize you.

And this time it will return wearing another cape. It will come back and hold your arms again, this time differently. It will return with blue eyes instead of brown. It will come back when you think you are not ready, but it knows the time is right.

It will come back with a voice you haven’t heard before. It will come back with greater and grander gestures to let you know how much you mean to them. It will come back with hands you can hold and shoulders you can lean on, again.

And I know all of this means nothing right now. I know this will not fix a heart broken so fresh. I know you are still contemplating a few ifs and buts. And I know it is hard to move on and be at peace with yourself.

But you need to let go. That is when you will be whole again. That is when the love will return. Because if you don’t set yourself free right now, you would miss meeting this magnificent love, waiting for you. You would miss this chance to meet the human who could be your forever, and is capable of changing your entire life.

So, even though it hurts like crazy right now, trust that the universe never lets us down. Have faith that you will fall in love again, because you already have once.

You will love again.

xAG